writing is hard
I haven’t written anything meant to be published on a blog in a long time.
Writing has always been really, really hard for me.
I think one might call this perfectionism; the second I bring up a topic, I need to feel like I know Enough to talk about it at length, even if I’m only mentioning it for a couple of lines. Then, I need to feel like I’ve included enough accessory material, like illustrations, definitions, analogies, allegories, and other friends, just so the material is interesting and accessible. And then, of course, I keep reviewing what I’ve written; have I repeated myself in the large (ideas) or in the small (word choice)? Pretty soon, of course, this leads to paralysis.
And even after all that effort, I look at the word count - “213 words”.
It really is demoralising when spend literal hours on something and the output appears so meagre.
Rafiq’s blog really was an inspiration to me; I need to accept that posts don’t have to be long.
If I show up, and keep showing up, the rest will take care of itself. I want to believe that.